Sharing experiences is complicated. It is complicated because it is so personal. It takes a lot to express emotions, to contemplate them and then put pen to paper… it takes some getting used to.
(I took this picture in a restaurant bathroom)
It is also equally difficult to share opinions. To preach from the tallest mountain: “Everyone should do what I am doing because it is the truth.”
I belong to a couple of forums that are Cardiac related. One of my favorites is Cardiac Athletes, www.cardiacathletes.com. It is a great group of people who have issues with their hearts but are not going to be constrained by the impairment. I drew inspiration from this group early on in my recovery and enjoy giving back.
Another site is Inspire. www.inspire.com This forum is much larger and not specific to survivors that are achieving through exercise or nutrition. I also used this forum during recovery and had great information on a wide array of questions I had.
Last week, I provided a link to the WholeFed blog on Inspire and thought there might be a few individuals that might draw some motivation from me. The particular post related to Attitude and included a short Buddhist prayer… At Least I Didn’t Die.
There were five very nice responses from Inspire members and then this:
to adopted a plant based diet,and now I have anemia. HAD MY BYPASSX4 IN 8/10 WORST MISTAKE i EVER MADE i THINK MOST ALL DOCTORS AND NURSES SUCK!!! BIG TIME, EVERYTHING TO THEM IS PROTOCOL, THE HELL WITH THAT, I DID DIE , AT LEAST EMOTIONALLY SO MUCH FOR YOUR BUDDHA. I DID LEARN ONE THING POSITIVE I WILL NEVER LET SOME SOB DOCTOR OR NURSE TOUCH ME AGAIN i CARRY A MEDICAL POWER OF ATTRNY DENYING CONSENT, AND i’M READY TO SUE AT THE DROP OF A HAT. AND I’M POSITIVE THAT I WILL CARRY THIS OUT. SO I GUESS I’M KEEPING A POSITIVE ATTITUDE, HOPE THINGS ARE GOING BETTER FOR YOU. I WOULD LIKE TO GO TO ICU AND BLOW MY BRAINS OUT, BUT I CAN’T BRING MYSELF TO THINK THESE PEOPLE ARE ANY WHERE WORTH IT
My initial response was pure anger. I fired off a reply, something along the lines that I am neither a Buddhist nor a Pacifist and if he wanted to blow his brains out then he should. I went on for a full paragraph and could not believe that someone would react to my personal experiences with anything other than inspiration.
Fortunately for me I am governed by a cooler head; my wife. She was very unimpressed with my response, and I had to agree. I deleted it and moved on.
I don’t know this gentleman. I am not familiar with the events that have occurred in his life to bring him to such a high level of frustration. Perhaps he has been the victim of medical malpractice and has a very sound basis for being paranoid of the medical establishment. Regardless it is very self-centered to expect my medicine to work on everyone who takes it.
It is not a simple world.
DISCLAIMER: I hope that anyone who takes the time to read my thoughts understands; my intention is not to preach. I have come across a course of action, through nutrition, that I believe has extraordinary benefits. The overwhelming motivation is to provide knowledge that a plan is available if you find yourself in tough circumstances. That’s it. I wish someone had told me.